it's so embarassing to need someone like i do you

how can i explain?

i need you here
and not here too..

how can i explain?

i need you here
and not here too..

i'm flunking out, i'm flunking out

i'm gone, i'm just gone

but at least i author my own disaster

at least i author my own disaster


things could be different
but they're not...

the cruelty's so predictable
makes you sad on the stage
though our love project has so much potential

"but it's like we weren't made for this world
though i wouldn't really wanna meet someone who was"

throw it all in my face

i don't care-

let's just have some fun
let's tear the shit apart
let's tear the fucking house apart
let's tear our fucking bodies apart

let's just have some fun

somehow you've red-rovered
the gestapo circling my heart

and nothing can defeat you

no death, no ugly world

you've lived so brightly
you've altered everything

i find myself
searching for old selves
while speeding forward
through the plateglass of maturing cells

there's no death, no ugly world

sometimes i wonder if you're mythologizing me

like i do you

apologizing me, like i do you

we want our film to be beautiful
not realistic

i'm so touched by your goodness
you make me feel so criminal
how do you keep it together?

i'm all, all unraveled

but'cha know
no matter where we are
we're always touching by underground wires

i'm sorry but

"i've explored you with the detachment of an analyst

we've raided the same kingdoms

and none of our secrets are physical.

none of our secrets, are physical."